mood swings

forgiving is probably the most difficult thing in the world...
especially forgiving yourself.
life is sometimes so good that it seems unreal.
but you eventually realize it really IS unreal - that's why it felt so good.
and then you start beating yourself up because you didn't try hard enough to make it come true.
sighs.

probably returning to HK for X'mas...
my sister's graduating and she wants me in the pictures...
not too excited about it though. not that i wanna stay in C'ville.
but i wanna travel somewhere else...wanna get away from any place that i'm familiar with...